2012 New Year’s Resolutions: Becoming the Person I Want To Be

I turned 60 last year and my batting average for keeping new year’s resolutions is pretty close to .000 – but that doesn’t mean I won’t keep trying to become the person I think I should be.  This year I have more incentive than ever to change.  The question is whether or not I can find the discipline to live differently.  Few people ever choose to do the hard things in life.  Well that’s me, I always take the path of least resistance. 

As I’ve gotten older and my body has reacted strongly to different bad habits, I’ve learned that it’s better to listen to my body than suffer the consequences.  Pain and poor health has been my real incentive to change.

I have spinal stenosis and the amount of time I can stand or walk is dwindling.  I’m down to 15-30 minutes before my legs start going numb.  I weigh 237 pounds and need to loose 62 pounds to get to a normal BMI.  Losing weight won’t cure the spinal stenosis but it might reduce the strain of standing and walking.  Will this powerful negative incentive help me lose weight when I’ve always failed before? 

I do have some will power.  I became a vegetarian back in the 1960s.  I gave up caffeine because it helped with headaches, rosacea and just feeling better.  I’ve given up chocolate and fatty foods because it upsets my stomach.  I mostly drink water because of my bladder and kidneys protesting other drinks.  And I’ve given up eggs and junk food to help lower my cholesterol.    You’d think with all the foods I’ve given up for other health reasons I’d be losing weight, but I haven’t.  It’s uncanny – my body gets more efficient at processing food.

I also think about how I should be more charitable and giving.  I have a few problems but other people have a lot more problems and I feel guilty that I’m so lucky.  On all the nightly news programs they have been running stories about innovative charities.  I find that very inspiring.  I wondering if I can find a creative way to be more helpful.

Along with my need to lose body weight I wished I could lose clutter pounds.  This would be clutter that fills my house and office, and thought clutter crowding my brain, and activity clutter that wastes my time.  What I’d really love is the ability to focus on bigger projects and get them done rather than dissipating my life chasing after so many little things.

Finally, I want to be less verbose and more focused in my blogging.

Happy New Year

JWH 1/1/12