By James Wallace Harris, Monday, July 25, 2016
This morning I sat down to write an essay, “What are the Most Important Concepts You’ve Learned Reading Science Fiction?” I was going to base it on Empire Star by Samuel R. Delany. I knew I’ve mentioned Empire Star many times on my blog, so I searched on that title. That’s when I discovered I had already written, “What Are The Most Useful Concepts You’ve Learned From Science Fiction?” And it was just over a year ago! How could I have forgotten that? Even the titles are almost identical (but not quite).
I’ve written 1,039 essays for this blog, and I’ve written hundreds more for other reasons. Let’s call it 2,000 essays. At what point is forgetting what I’ve written something natural, and when is it a sign of impending dementia? Occasionally, I’ve rediscover essays I’ve written and have no memory of writing them. Sometimes reading them brings back vague memories, sometimes not. Who remembers every meal they’ve eaten? Some forgetting is natural. Who can remember 2,000 of anything? Has any writer forgotten a whole novel?
Sometimes I know I’ve written an essay and intentionally rewrite it hoping to do a better job. Not this time. I thought I had a new idea. And I don’t think I could do better if I tried again. In fact, I was planning something smaller.
I don’t think I have dementia, but I wonder about the dynamics of forgetting. One of the fascinating aspects of getting older is learning my limitations. Everyone has limitations, but they’re less obvious when we’re young.
I wonder what the second essay would have been like if I hadn’t discovered the first.
Have I written this essay before?
3 thoughts on “When Is Forgetting Natural or Dementia?”
Hi James. Would you be willing to share your email with me so I can have a conversation with you rather than making a comment? I’ve been reading your essays for several months and I share a lot of them with my science fiction book discussion group. Thanks for writing them.
Good question. Forgetting is one of the things I fear about getting old and about my parents getting old.
You should ask B o b to do a guest blog. He just wrote about this for Best Times.